I am feeling like a FAILURE today. Firstly, I neglected this blog for like, a week, and totally did not accomplish everything I wanted to.
Today, however…the feelings were triggered by a picture my mom took of me where I look BAD. Granted, I wasn’t standing straight and she took it from a horrible angle…but my stomach is sticking out and it drives me crazy. That’s always my problem area, and when I gain weight, that’s where it goes.
It’s amazing how something that small can completely consume my thoughts for a day. I really do understand how eating disorders happen…I would not go to that extreme, but I get it. That feeling of no control. It’s sad that living a generally healthy lifestyle isn’t enough sometimes. With my body type and my genes…I really have to work for it. It doesn’t seem fair.
I need to be honest with myself and admit that my health habits have slowly drifted for the past year, and I am not where I should be. I hate being hard on myself, but I think I need to be for a little while. It’s worth it to be comfortable in my own skin.
In a few minutes I’m going to the track with my mom for a run/walk. This week, I’m going to do a raw cleanse for at LEAST two days. And I am taking control. Any positive vibes are greatly appreciated.
Good start to the week! Accomplished all my daily goals. I did my kickboxing DVD (same workout as last week) and it killed! Tomorrow, I plan on doing both kickboxing and yoga.
Other goals for tomorrow:
- Drink more water throughout the day
- Take my iron supplement in the morning
- Do 4 sets of bicep curls
1. Drink at least 16 oz of water every morning.
2. Drink one green smoothie every day.
3. Do at least 15 minutes of yoga 3 times this week.
4. Run or do kickboxing every day.
5. Eat more fruits and vegetables as snacks.
This week is going great! Keeping up with my goals for the week - I’ve done my kickboxing DVD and had a green smoothie every day. Today I had a peanut butter banana smoothie (with lots of spinach) and it’s definitely my favorite combo. Much easier to drink!
Setting up goals one week at a time is definitely best for me. One week seems like nothing, but in the long run, it counts.
Another good day! Did my kickboxing DVD again and had a green smoothie after school. My goal is to do at least those two things every day this week! :)